Talking to others is discouraged, and why you should be doing it

I have a very vicious independent streak in me, for most of my late teens and early 20s I was endlessly dismissive of any as being capable of helping me in any fashion, not that I now doubt my skills, but I am a bit more wise and fully see the value of talking to others to get different viewpoints of a matter – namely because I realized how locked in my thoughts were and to encourage divergent thinking.  This is kind of like the whole manosphere, were men rarely agree on things, but you are exposed to people who clearly think about things, and you are forced to either re-evaluate what you believe, or at least truly question what you think.

Men as a group as systematically raised to NOT seek others help for things that matter, I think this is likely purposeful and leads us to be taken advantage of easily.  Understand what I am saying: girls routinely talk to each other about their problems, and come to answers guys never do ‘going it alone’, whereas guys going alone have only one source of information: the collective – so of course their conclusions will often be wrong.  Example 1: the complete failure of men with women in everything to dating to staying with bpd women, how white knightism is encouraged, and can never figure anything out.

We get caught in bad relationships and the ONLY thing we know how to do is what society told us to do ‘man up’ and stay with the bitch or damaging girl, or to ‘man up’ and prove your loyalty to some cuckolding bitch and somehow so how great you are and make her come back to you.

When I was getting destroyed by my bpd girl, most of my ‘friends’ didn’t give a shit and wouldn’t talk to me, I had one guy I became good friends with (we since fell apart due to something else) but we actually talked about girls, and it was insane how productive it was – this was before I found the manosphere but same idea.  We could see things from different perspectives, talk about ‘does this really work?’ and so on, it helped so tremendously to transcend the false world we find ourselves.

I have a friend now we talk philosophy about, about how America is an endless aristocracy, how democracy if not completely rigged than serves the same purpose of controlling the masses by offering no real choices, how corporatism is the biggest threat…and when I tell others I TALK to someone else raise a suspicious eye because people just don’t talk anymore.  That’s exactly how they want it.  If you aren’t talking to others, then they get to talk to you: through the tv, through rigged media, through porn, through football etc etc.

I highly encourage trying to find people who are divergent thinkers and engage them in conversation, it doesn’t matter if they believe something totally different, because you can both see why you believe something, and maybe hear something you never considered, and at the very least to question your own beliefs, and you will likely find what I did – so many you have held really are insubstantial and require a new valuation.  A new way to truly see life instead of the packaged view you have been ‘gifted’.

ek39

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Movements will be stopped, and the people will be ‘moderated’

There will be no stopping the final years of the globalization/capitalism juggernaut that is currently in motion rendering a majority of the world’s population while a small tribal elite continue to become richer. People are generally too stupid, too prone to propaganda, and the machine is too well entrenched for any realistic chance of ‘change’ to occur, by far one of the biggest ways this occurs is through co-option of movements, rendering them null from within, further amplified by a endless praise of a Hegelian dialectic as some sort of truth.

What I want to briefly sketch out today is the multipronged attack the people are neutered and the profit-machine will continue to roll with the rich getting richer until its inevitable crash when oil runs out.

Income Inequality

Income inequality is by far one of the biggest problems that exist today, the sheer scale of the inequality is nearly incomprehensible, I will be taking on both US parties in this, and this is one of the largest failings of the Republican party, the justification of said inequality. Let me state it bluntly, I do not believe people are equal, and until we start a eugenics or genetic engineering program, we will not be. However, I also realized that most people are within 3 standard deviations of each other. The military has a good Socialist pay scale where there is only a 10x factor of pay from the highest general to the lowest private. Much different than the lauded ‘free market’ that has produced insane outcomes of many full time workers making less than 20k a year, while CEOs pull in millions or billions, suggesting – absurdly I might add- that one CEO is worth 50,000 to 1 million peons. Put in a different way, this inequality suggest that say an average person can benchpress 70 pounds, said CEO is so strong, he is benching 350,000 pounds, because that’s how much more of a person he is – quite ludicrous.

Walmart truth

My point here is not to harp on the income equality, a cursory search online can find you tons of info, but watch what happens to movements that challenge the status quo. First look at the Tea Party, I didn’t agree with their stances as its far to Libertarian for my tastes, but their ranks swelled with people angry and wanting change. Their height was arguably somewhere around 2010, but as usual protocols, they were infiltrated, marginalized, and effectively removed as a threat. What was a threat to the power, has been reduced to a laughing stock. Consider ‘Occupy Wallstreet’ I have never seen a populist movement gain so fast, and then be taken down to fast. They cut to a true heart of major issues: income inequality. Notice how fast the machine was put into motion such as Fox news denouncing them as ‘spoiled privileged hypocrites’ etc.

The culutural Marxism set upon our society by the Tribes is most notable by the stupidity of the Hegelian Dieletic that poisons our discourse. Few know what this even is, essentialy Hegel was a german who Marx, a Jew, took from extensively in the creation of Marxism. The idea is that if you take Issue A, and Issue B, the ‘TRUTH’ is a synthesis of the two of them. Profoundly stupid, but I will demonstrate how this Marxism effects us today.

First think of conventional politics in the US, using a deeply flawed ‘left/right’ scale, the more on the dge you get, the more ‘extreme’/fanatical you are. Being called a ‘Moderate’ is some sort of badge of honor, as if in…hmm exactly like Hegel’s words…the truth is in the middle. The idea that the more to the left or right you get the more ‘wrong’ you get, and the more middle you are the more ‘correct’ you are. Of course nothing is further from the truth. In the middle you have completely swallowed the propaganda, you are watching CNN/FOX, you believe Obama and Bush are different etc etc.   Frankly, it’d be better if you were extreme but wrong, such as thinking ‘Nazi’s rule the white house’.

But there is an important subtly here, and I want to end on that. I have established that the moneyed elite prefer a ‘moderate’ who has synthesized both sides, who perhaps is ‘against abortion except in rape and incest’…who gives a flying fuck about abortion when we are in the final years of both our empire, and the global economy!?   I have stated this before on https://eruditeknight.wordpress.com/category/cultural-marxism/  that ‘both sides’ have truth…but it is unadulterated truth! You do not need to water that shit down, its when you ‘moderate’ these beliefs they are wrong. The key is that you have to PICK AND CHOOSE from each side, each ‘issue’ is separate, just because I think the citizenry should be armed does not mean I love churches, far from it. Just because income gap and the environmental degradation are real issues doesn’t mean I have faggot love or at all support feminists. You need to be extreme, and you need to be proud and stand by your convictions. Because that is exactly what they don’t want you to do, they want to shove you into a nice little moderate sheeple box that is easy to manipulate so that ‘terrorism’ suddenly justifies a militant police force, or that ‘economic gain’ somehow justifies the complete obliteration of protectionism of our own goods etc.

So come to you own conclusions, the more extreme the better, because you will go searching, and that’s exactly what they don’t want you to do.

 

Some parting thoughts

There are a few things I want to make sure are said, I want to be clear and have zero equivocation, also I held back from writing this because of its emotionally charged nature, and of some very non-pc things that are going to be said.  I was scared people might not like me, or that some other bad thing would occur, but I am tired of it hanging on my mind, and I going to talk freely.  As always, look it up yourself. Don’t take my word for it, truth does not need to hide in locution or bar its followers from looking elsewhere. LOOK IT UP YOURSELF.

I got a notice that it was my 2 year anniversary on word press, my blog was shorter lived, as I got the name and commented for about 6 months before launching, but regardless, the 2 years ago EK was a bold work in progress cutting through the illusions of my 20s. Take the EK of 3 years ago and I wonder how much of the things I am about to say I would be like ‘who the hell is this?’

I have a ‘friend’ (Truthfully I have lost a lot of my old friends, they are stuck in the same juvenile mindset that most never escape from their whole life) who recently claimed that he would be a catholic regardless of what country he was born in. A pretty stupendously naive statement, that the ‘truth’ you were born into is the actual truth. Its like saying the local football team is the team you would have come to support regardless of where you are born, it defies even the most basic of self-examination. Most people never question this ‘born truth’, and it serves them fine. There is a reason nearly EVERY manosphere guy had a ‘red pill moment’ and that’s because our society is so incredibly indoctrinated, quite the opposite of the ‘freedom’ we believe we live under, that it takes something to shake us to our core. To a lot of guys it may be divorce, or nice guy attitudes being unsuccessful, to me it was that girls will manipulate and use you under the guise of love.

Did you know every major empire (over twenty of them, like the Macedonians, Romans, UK, etc) has gone through nearly the exact same pattern, the US isn’t nearly as unique as we would like to believe, it was the brave frontier/people conquering, the rise to power, the eminence, then the decline which education/social programs/women’s rights/ etc become to the forefront as money became more important than honor. Yes, ‘feminism’ has happened before, Rome, Arab, etc, all at the end of their empire thought they were at their most advanced, as the decadence flourishes as the empire dies.  http://www.rexresearch.com/glubb/glubb-empire.pdf This is a great read about what I just said.

I raged against feminism, it was an easy target for my clearing eyes: it empowered these women who fucked so many of my comrades and myself. Now let me be clear, I have a sister and my mom of which I am both fairly close with, so growing up I was a ‘female supporter’ as my sister was smarted than more guys, as tough etc. ‘Why would men criticize women?’ The major difference was that I think even in my young mind I subscribed to a merit-based model, where you were judged on your deeds, not your sex ie. you either can pass the physical test or you can’t, there is no changing it and you get no accolades passing it as a women.

I maintained a lot of my ‘liberal’ ideologies (and I still maintain a few, like I am a pro-government supporter in that I think there should be a strong national government if we are not going to go with a Confederacy as espoused by Paine) but chinks in the armor developed. So many talked about HBD human-bio-diversity, about how race was real. When my mind was allowed to actually objectively look at the facts it was quite clear. Again from my anecdotal evidence it seemed pretty obvious that blacks in general could run faster but I never met one who I was even convinced possessed beyond an average intellect, but I wasn’t ‘supposed’ to say or think that. Just like I wasn’t supposed to think women had the power, but it was obvious to me they did once I got beyond the illusions.

I think this was a reason I lost a lot of friends, they were plugged into the same stupid shit of ‘Democrat vs Republican’ and arguing if companies should pay for birth control, or if the US should help in Ukraine. How the hell could they understand when I was telling them of the illusion they lived in, the slave existence we are conditioned to accept, or even to tell them simply realities that the laws are pro-women when I get accused of ‘hating women’ or being ‘unsuccessful’ with women! It was pure lunacy mind you, because I had never been more successful with them then when I accepted the harsh truth over the pretty lies. The evidence was stacking up so fast, both in theory and in practice. I saw my friends routinely taken advantage of by women, I’d call exactly what happens to them a few months before it happens, get called ‘angry at women’ and then when my friend get dumped or left or whatever they are confused why it happened. They don’t learn. I have had increasingly little patience with that. I have had a trend I stick with that I always am the last one to respond to a person (not in the gotta-have-the-last-word way but that I will reach out if I haven’t heard in a while) but it takes two to tango and some numbers that remain silent actually are preferred than pretending we have some similarities when our beliefs have completely diverged.

Feminism was the crack a lot of other sacred truths came crashing down. I can legitimately say I was not ‘racist’ at all growing up, the belief seemed bigoted and wrong. It was cultural I completely understand now. When I looked at the facts how could I not come to the obvious conclusion of the near R vs K selection that was occurring in our species? I hold what might be called ‘racist’ beliefs, I think southern hemisphere people are inferior intellectually, and there is a reason there is not a single black ’empire’ of note in history. But I don’t hate blacks, etc, they are just pawns in a large game we are all part of.

A big thing was the realization of this vast complex of victimization, where everyone except white males was apparently so fucked up by a history of white dominance that everyone now needed bonuses. Victims were EVERYWHERE, you had women, blacks, jews, homos, all of them saying how evil the white man was, and then these endless liberal white men agreeing how bad they were, and they will take their pegging at your disenfranchised leisure.

Either you are equal, so you don’t need an advantage, or you are inferior and you need an advantage to make it competitive, despite what feminists and NAACP says, evidence shows you need the advantage. http://www.aei-ideas.org/2013/04/medical-school-acceptance-rates-for-2010-2012-reflect-racial-preferences-for-blacks-and-hispanics/ This is a perfect example where medical school scores are nearly meaningless and simply being black is enough to get in.

I long knew there were forces in control beyond just the president, I was a huge alex jones fan for a while, convinced that 2012 it was on, that the ‘nazis’ were taking over. But my better judgment prevailed and thoughts of ‘why hasn’t this happened yet…he sure is a fear monger’ helped me move past. I came to see that what we actually faced was a monolithic force that the media intentionally hides from us: jewish elite control, now before your mind ‘slides’ off the topic (a CIA term about how we are programmed to automatically discard arguments we dont agree with) did you know that Feminism was nearly entirely jewish? (http://www.truthinourtime.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/05/1399051555535.jpg) Yes, that is right. Jews took down the Romanov family and started perhaps the bloodiest murder of people starting with the Bolshevik revolution, the supposed ‘holocaust’ with even the upper end of 6 million PALES in comparison to the millions upon millions killed by jewish communists just within their own country, not including all the other blood on their hands.

These things were painful for me to swallow at first, ‘but the jews…but the women!’ my child mind said, these were the victims! But fact after fact slowly ground down the old illusions. Here is something to chew on, obviously a site like this has a potential axe to grind, but consider the facts for what they are: http://www.dailystormer.com/comprehensive-lists-of-the-jews-who-dominate-us/ that in nearly every power center the <2% race occupies a 900%-3000%+ OVER-representation of the owners and CEOs of these. Guess its that good work ethic…wait why arent the chinese on that list then?

Why for example was germany so ‘evil in ww2 when it was the Treaty of Versailles that economically strangled the Weimar Republic? Did they do anything any brave people would not have when so obviously playing a game rigged against them? Now before any starts crying about ‘evil nazis’ or poor jews or whatever, LOOK AT THE FACTS YOURSELF, both my grand fathers fought in the war on the USA side, I get it. We can’t believe we in fact might have been duped or we might have been the ‘bad guys’. Henry Ford wanted to support germany. General Patton expressed dismay about beating the germans but the true enemy of the communist jews: ‘we have had a victory over the Germans and disarmed them, but we have failed in the liberation of Europe; we have lost the war!’ (http://www.rense.com/general85/pats.htm <good site covering this American hero and his ‘wrong’ beliefs)

My learning extended to relativism, the idea that ‘anything goes’ and no one is right. This is the perfect anarchy belief, because then there is no unified force that can challenge the established power structures. Why do you think libertarianism is pushed so hard right now as ‘intellectual’? Its all to trap people that would otherwise actually challenge the system. I found that relativism was in fact a direct plan of the Frankfurt school booted out of german and their goal was ‘cultural marxism’. (Two good reads on this: http://www.wvwnews.net/story.php?id=8183 and http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/news/823368/posts ) I had heard this term before but that it was just some meaningless slander like ‘commi’, but no, it is very real, the idea to have all this infighting and ‘anything goes’ attitude to bring decadence, nihilism and eventually chaos to the host country the parasite had found itself in. Sounds like an apt description of America.

I did a lot of research on the Founding Fathers, finding out they were not unified in their plans at all. You had people like Madison and Hamilton that seemed like nothing more than a precursor to the corporate stooge, you had people like Paine who despite being essentially the founder of ‘libertarianism’ is disavowed by many libertarians for too controversial beliefs. Paine espoused a Confederacy of a mutual defense pact and strong state rights. Our early history is not clean or pure, but there was a lot to learn there, like for example the tired attempts of establishing central banks to saddle us with debt. Jefferson: ‘If the American people ever allow private banks to control the issue of their currency, first by inflation, then by deflation, the banks and the corporations which grow up around them will deprive the people of all property until their children wake up homeless on the continent their fathers conquered’ Later we have great heroes like Jackson who claimed his greatest accomplishment was ‘I killed the bank’ in regard to a central bank.

We follow this pattern into World War 1, where America wanted to stay isolationist, or sided with the Germans, and Wilson establishes the Fed reserve to finance the war, and the sinking of the Listunia happens in may 1915, they try to drum the war, but only once the fed is fully operational do the resurrect the sinking as ‘reason’ to go to war…over two years later. The media kicks into overdrive and suddenly the sinking is an evil that must be punished.

Anyway, I wrote a lot here, most of it likely challenging, hope you read this far instead of ‘racist idiot’ and clicked back. I was the naive, love-everyone liberal who had one fatal flaw of questioning what I was told. Of looking when stuff just didn’t make sense. First it started with feminism but spiraled into so much other stuff, yet was so connected in the end. The suppression of white males, the endless debt we are saddled with, the endless re-write of history, and anyone who speaks about the evil the government does, jews, women etc do it some ignorant racist.

There are some tough questions here, but if you are on the search for truth…no matter the cost – there are some walls you are going have to break down in your mind. If you want to call me racist, ignorant, angry and unsuccessful with women, go right ahead, its so much easier for your mind. But if you care at all, read some things that challenge ‘truth’ because what is so great about it, is truth doesn’t change if you look at something wrong. I wasn’t born with these ideas, I didn’t even start with them, but they are what I have found when I pursued some non-approved learning, challenge yourself a bit, and maybe I will see you on the other side where we have abandoned our illusions and only truth and reality remain.

EK out.

The End

I have not written in a while, but I have also been giving this some thought for a while.  When I created this blog it was in a purpose that I was after truth, and that I would share my experience with others, and perhaps come to some mutual truths.  Also a large part of it was cathartic in nature, raging at the injustice males find our selves in, and the uphill battle we endlessly face.

For the catharsis, it has been mostly successful, I was a much more angry man about a year and a half ago than now, not to say I have lost the ardor of injustice we bear, but that I simple yelled, strut and fret my hour upon the stage. ‘And then is heard no more: it is a tale. Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, Signifying nothing.’

A dark truth I realized, was blogging is not an effective medium for truth, in fact it is similar to other ‘social media’ meaning utterly useless because it is co-opted into ego gratification.

Blogging for the most part is a huge circle jerk / dick suck.

It really is.

A major problem is the medium, to stay ‘relevant’ you must constantly have new/novelty and you must direct traffic.  The first leads to shit posts and/or repetitions.  The 2nd leads to the debasement of any quality of medium.  You have people ‘liking’ your posts who you never see again, and just want a counter ‘like’, you have people follow you (who follow thousands) who just want a follow, you have 1 word commentors who want a comment back etc.  Ultimately it also devolves into this ‘well heres what I say today!  lets go see what a,b,c say today,’ and it turns into this little circle of mutual dick sucking.  Truth has long since expired as the purpose, and regardless of stated intentions, it becomes about ego gratification, hoping people ‘like’ you, and you’ll jack off a few people along the way as long as you yourself get it in return.

I really admired a guy who had a blog ‘solve my girl problems’ he got to the point, had inspiring posts, etc.  But he kind of fell into the trap a lot do where your posts get less relevant, more repetitious, you start caring about image instead of purpose etc.  I think he realized that and folded up.  For that reason I view him with more respect than so-called big names like ‘cheateau hertiste’ and ‘rationale male’ both who I used to like, but it really becomes an endless ‘same old shit’ syndrome.

CH is really bad, being the big shot, his comments demonstrate the endless dick suck blogging at its heart is, you have the placaters who dote on every article, you have the one-worders who just want traffic, you have the females fishing for attention (and talk about fucking irony!  those males are supposed to ‘get it’ yet they fall into the traps the girls lay for them.  ‘OMG!  a girl I must respond maybe she will suck my dick!), you have the decent posters who eventually realize the medium is shit and stop posting and move on, etc.

Another major problem is girls ‘win’ on blogging in general, you have a lot of so-called females who post whatever, and really the quality doesnt matter, I have seen greater quality at far less successful blogs such as Emperor Lubu’s.  If I was going for pure success (and perhaps my utilitarian mind should have considered it) I should have be Erudite Princess or something (quick aside, I actually had some blogger named Erudite Princess contact me a few months ago!) because I’d have far more success as a ‘novel’ female bitching about the exact same things.

For example, another thing looking back I had a huge problem with was the blogger ‘Judgy Bitch’ she has actually risen to pretty prominent ‘success’, oh she is so ‘novel’ a girl who ‘gets it’.  Whatever.  I actually was friends with her early, we both started about the same time, I was one of her few early commentators (can check if my claims need validation).  For months we languished in obscurity together, like all my original blog friends I asked if she wanted to exchange blog rolls, and she said yes like everyone else.  Well her link went up here, and wth…why isnt mine on hers?  I asked her about it ‘oh ill get it up’.  Ok.  Long story short, months later and a few reminders and it never happened.  After a while you just have to realize people lie and are not someone you can count on.  She let success get to her, and in the process forgot the ‘little people’ who started with her.  I hate her now, we started together and because success found her, freely cast those around her to the side.

The major prolem is like much of life, quality does not equal success.  As mentioned a lot of the people on my blog roll write some pretty good things, and they have very little readership.  Then you have these others (typically girls) who post pictures of their day and have 100 comments per picture, the fact such behavior is rewarded is disturbing.

Because I am not on twitter, facebook etc, I never will be successful, that is the reality.  Why do you think CH etc has a twitter feed?  It is to keep our ADD society addicted to little blips of attention.

I am actually near 200 posts, I may or may not continue, but the lack of comments on the last couple of long posts make it seem less likely.  At this point I write only to help others, as the purpose of what I did for myself has been accomplished.  I have left old illusions behind, and healed past wounds.  If I am not helping others there is no reason to continue.

Anyway, any of my readers that have been loyal, but not commented, I hope my blog has been useful to you.  This is not the official end necessairly, but if it is, thanks for reading and I hope it helped.

Even ‘smart’ people are subject to propaganda – often more so

I just got back from an old friends college graduation party, what was notable was my friend was substantially ‘smarter’ now, and could argue intelligently, but was still completely deluded in regards to propaganda we are fed, despite arguing coherently, he still believed things like the wage gap, and proceeded to lie himself into believing it was men’s fault.

First, I just recently read something (if anyone knows the source) but essentially the argument was that some study about so-called ‘smarter’ people actually fall for propaganda more deeply, I think this was in regards to feminism in modern day but the study was based on racist beliefs, but essentially that when propaganda was hoisted on the populace, ‘everyone’ would agree with the lies like ‘all man are potential rapists’ but in reality only the educated people BELIEVED it, whereas the uneducated had hard stereotypes they fell back on, regardless of what was professed.

I had never considered this specific angle but makes sense, if you are from the south, it doesn’t matter how much progressive ideology you are fed about races, you are still going to hate blacks, hate muslims, whatever. This is not important to the argument other than that they do NOT listen to the propaganda (whatever it may be) whereas the intellectuals WILL, because its ‘logical’ ‘smart’ ‘right’ etc. It ultimately comes back to ego, they are so progressive of course everyone KNOWS men rape etc. Ironic, because if they critically examined the past they would see how fast ‘obvious’ conclusions change.

Anyway to my friend, we went to highschool together, and he was a bit younger, and on the slow graduation path, back then he was not smart. I hadn’t seen him in like 3 years easy, he’s fatter now, but I was impressed with his ability to argue coherently. This was not a guy who was intelligent, rather he was made fun of for being dumb.

Now, as many of my readers may know, I graduated with a bachelors in environmental science, and despite the hard science training I had, I have not found a job in science (which I am totally skeptical of STEM short of about the xxEx until engineering gets overrun as well) anyway, I come down VERY hard on so-called intellectuals. I find it appropriate to delineate between true hard ‘scientists’ (biology, chemistry, math, physics, ecology etc) and everything else. That means I view psychology as a dangerous pseudo-science that has endowed a large portion of females with ‘oracles’ powers us mere mortals can’t comprehend. I do not consider philosophy, religion etc a REAL major, and this is the source of the disparaged intellectuals I slam. These are the pathetic humans that make the way into middle management or HR and fuck everyone else’s life because their own is a ruin they can’t comprehend.

My friend graduated in computer science, I would say that is a hard science, based on real facts, repeatable, etc. So far so good. We start talking about stuff and he start referencing google scholar, and ‘sources’, partly I like that instead of pure anecdotal evidence, (but I do not discount anecdotal at all) but the whole ‘source’ thing is very…hipster and intellectual. He mentioned something about the wage gap, and I was thinking ‘should I say something…or just let this go?’

But I was hear to spread the truth, and this was a situation it might find ground to grow.

‘The wage gap is a lie’ –Me

(Any new readers – start with this link [http://www.nytimes.com/2007/08/03/nyregion/03women.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0 ] from a MAINSTREAM media, actually telling the heretical fact that young women make MORE than men. 5000$ for a 30k job, pretty fucking insane)

‘Not so! If you look at x y and z source women do indeed make less than men.’ –him

‘If you control for all factors that may be true, but it is deceptive – men work more and at higher paying jobs’ – me

‘that’s because women are told they aren’t good at math. According to study z women do worse when they think it’s a math test compared to a regular test’ – him

(quick aside, if you know anything about MBTI personality theory, hard defaulting to external authority is a J trait, most man-o-sphere writers are hard P, they question established doctrine)

‘It’s problematic man, we compare someone working more, at a higher paying job, and complain about the unfairness in the ‘wage gap’ ‘ – me

He proceeded to launch into…something stunning. He made the argument that we CONDITION girls to accept ‘subservient ‘ jobs like teachers because they aren’t ‘good’ at math. He was making the argument that sexism was so pervasive, that we were conditioning our poor girls to be 2nd class citizens, regulated to being a humble kindergarten teacher.

‘I got some serious problems with your argument man, you are acting like school teachers are powerless, I am going to counter that teachers have insane power. It is men who are the victims of sexism here, they are reared by women their entire school lives, told how bad they are as boys and those females teachers aren’t spouting anti-female rhetoric that’s for sure’ –Me

‘Oh, but they are, because teachers see the studies, they know other women can’t be good at math, so they subconsciously edge girls away from jobs that would earn them more.’ –Him

The conversation ended when someone else came up, but I was stunned that there was this self-flogging by a male FOR women. I have clearly seen this type of behavior before as nearly every pathetic ‘man’ who tries to woo women with his apologetic groveling, but to see it so indoctrinated, so researched, so…non-truth, non-reality being taken as reality, and some irreality being substituted in for what was ‘wrong’ with the situation.

It is a bit hard to describe the effect this had on me, because again, the self flogging is nothing new, but this was a whole new level. Its like if someone came up to me and painted this vast picture of history and science about how all men are actually gay…its like wtf!? How is this the conclusion!?

My point here is not to attack or flame my friend, I am simply stunned at the effectiveness of intellectualism in destroying actual intellect. It doesn’t matter that even a cursory search shows the wage gap is a lie, or how about the heretical (but true) reality that my generation (sub 30) actually fares WORSE as males then our female counterparts? We live at home far higher, unemployed far higher, and make less. Where the fuck is THAT dialogue? Oh, its not convenient, women are the only victims I forgot.

It is reasons like this I cannot ever believe main stream politics, as they sure as shit know the wage gap is a lie, but both parties shovel it out like some serious social crisis as if people were getting murdered in the streets it is so bad. Hey but that’s the whole point, if we fight for things that aren’t real, then real things go un-fought.

A punch is just a punch, a girl is just a girl

“Before I learned the art, a punch was just a punch, and a kick, just a kick.
After I learned the art, a punch was no longer a punch, a kick, no longer a kick.
Now that I understand the art, a punch is just a punch and a kick is just a kick.”
— Bruce Lee

I was talking to a friend of mine about girls (a practice I HIGHLY recommend, because regardless of if it seems ‘gay’ you learn so much by sharing your wins and losses – afterall this is how girls become so high level) and I mentioned to him I am not really angry at women anymore.  Which I freely admit I was, simply look at the early posts here.

Prior to my awakening, a girl was ‘just a girl’, kind of dumb, kind of complicated but kind of simple, vain, I could be friends with her without ruining chances of a relationship, generally flaky, find one you like and get married and live happily ever after.  They were mysterious as they were simple, they liked things like flowers and gifts (and a ‘real man’ would buy them these!) yet were mysterious as to why they liked those badboy types on occasion.  Oh well, they were just misguided is all, they wanted a real knight in their life. I would be that knight, dutifully waiting for them to come to their senses.  It was so sweet.

Then…

Birth by fire

My delusions of love, of commitment, of everything related to girls was used, abused, and I was left a substantial emotional wreck for about 6 months, and a mild wreck for about a year after that.  I had done ‘everything’ right and I was fucked up for it.  How was this fair, how was this right?  What did I do wrong!?

‘What the fuck happened!?’ I asked myself every day, every minute at times.  It really was this bad, it was this obsession because I was hurt so bad.  Was I not a good enough guy?  Maybe if I just acted nicer…maybe I just needed to ‘man up’, maybe I just needed to accept her and her treacherous slut ways.  Wouldnt that be the ‘knight’ thing to do?  It was so bad, there were times I was ready to move out with this girl, to play second fiddle while she finished lawyer school, I would get a job at a coffee house, it would be hard, but I would be with her, it would be so perfect.  Yes, I had these disgusting thoughts.

I am very fortunate I was raised to be critical by my dad, and to not accept conventional wisdom.  I dove into anything I could find about ‘what the fuck happened’, I came across a BPD board (borderline personality disorder) and …this is what this girl was like!  The push pull, telling me how much she wanted me, how much she loved sex, how much we were going to do sexually, how she couldnt wait to see me…and week after week, holiday after holiday passed, and nothing.  The push/pull was endlessly addicting, and thats why BPD people fuck up others so bad.  You get the strength to walk away during the push phase, of them being mean, only to suddenly ‘sorry, I had a really bad day, I cant wait to see you again.  I was imagining of going down on your last night…im such a bad girl arent i?’

Anyway, so I found this bpd board, people going through similar situations, and in a lot of cases way worse than me.  Losing houses, getting divorced after 10 years, all their wealth split and confiscated, it was mind blowing to me.  Weren’t girls supposed to be the ‘good’ ones?  Werent guys just ‘evil rapists’?  What the fuck was happening in this world where all these nice guys were playing by the rules…and losing!?  Utterly losing! They were getting raped by their girl, and society writ-large.  Wheels started turning.  Maybe not everything was as it seemed.

The term bpd actually got me into the ‘manosphere’ because it seems nearly every guy who came here actually had run ins with bpd girls whether they realized it or not.  I of course was looking up bpd stuff, but then came across key sites like ‘solvemygirlproblems’ ‘chateau hertiste’ and ‘rationale male’ all of which touch on bpd.  Hmm, what is this, calling girls trite little manipulative sluts?  Well thats not very nice of them, hmm, but this is pretty accurate what they are saying.  That girls will rock your shit unless you are completely dialed.  That ‘love’ does not really exist in any meaningful fashion because a girl will leave you for someone better if the opportunity is there.  Well damn…that sure seemed right to me.

I dove HEAD FIRST into this shit.  I read all the archives, I checked new posts religiously. Obviously they were hard into the PUA lifestyle, but damn if they werent right about a lot.  ‘Living for myself’?  Be a real man and the girls will actually like you better?  Nice guys really do finish last?

It was mind blowing.  I was swallowing the pile and saw that the world really was around me.

I was entering the ‘a girl was no longer a girl’ phase where I had been at for about the last year or more.  These little sluts…they would ride the cock from 18 to 30 then settle down for a ‘nice guy’ who was spurned for his whole life and now only wanted for his money and not judging her on failing fertility and sinking looks.  Woah, this goes back to those bpd males, they were the nice guys who got rocked by these whores!!!  ‘Single moms’ were thought to be heroes, not because they were, but because it was part of feminist protocol where a ‘real man’ would take her used ass.  ‘Rape’ gave women the power to have sex freely but blame the man if she regretted it. There was the emerging pattern of girls under about 25 being insanely slutty and hoped from guy to guy, only to 30+ want to ‘settle down’ and was done with the ‘experimenting’ stage of her life, and it made sense why – alpha fucks and beta bucks!

I understood things, things were connecting!

I even put things into practice, ‘no way this shit actually works, but ill try it’  I was dismissive, aggressive, standoffish, not ‘friends’ with girls.  I made fun of them, I embraced saying ‘inappropriate’ things, I only had conversation related to sex with girls.  What the fuck…all these girls want me now?  There was a period where within a week I could have done an 18 year old and done a 40 year old, I am glad neither happened, but it was basically on until I pushed them off.  Hookups came easily.  I remember walking away from one girl trying to get me off telling her ‘this wasnt working’ and never seeing her again, wow, what a badass I had become!

In my mind there was all these connections, all these little signs.  A girl could say this, or I say that which would lead to these predictable outcomes.  I had my shit dialed, I had one girl sending me naked pics WHILE she had a boyfriend.

Body language, tone, word choice, all this shit mattered, and was very important.  In general silence and distance was generally the right choice, with occasional bursts of sex-charged flirts and jokes.  It defied logic, but not talking to girls made them want me even more.  I even had tacit admitting to this by some girls text something like ‘you know when you ignore me it makes me want you even more’

I was this cold, cocky badass on the outside, but on the inside I was full of anger, of rage.  These fucking feminists!  Every new article from jizbelle and every fucking feminist argument was so clearly wrong, what the fuck was wrong with these people believing it?  I wanted to slap the shit out of every girl I saw – but realized the white knight society that would take me down in a heart beat.  Fools, didn’t they know the real enemy!?

I saw the game, I was winning the game!  I had anger no one else understood it…but whatever at least I understood unlike everyone else barring this small online niche.  I had this friend who is with this ugly ass girl who locks his life down, and he was telling me ‘girl advice’ I would laugh in his face, because he was in the old mindset that ‘girlfriend = winner single=loser’ oblivious to that his life was controlled by her, and I could have sex with girls just as easily (easier in fact since she controlled the flow)

But things started changing.  I had this blinding light, this anger that burned away all delusion, and do not misunderstand, I am not going to say anger was bad, it was so critical to my growth, but eventually it was like ‘why I am still angry’?  I understood the game.  I could rage all I wanted, but it changed nothing.  All that was productive was to share my experiences with those that would listen (like how I first became aware) and to the end I have succeeded at I know at least two guys in real life I had woken up to ‘the score’ we face.  Our feminist society will kill itself, so that will ultimately fail.  And my endless anger was hurting myself, I was scarring my heart, maybe raising my blood pressure.

I started blogging mainly to express my rage.  If I did not fight feminism, I was complacent in it.  It was great, I could write and write about the fucked up reality of females in our current society.  I found out people who came from different backgrounds and we’re FINDING THE SAME THING.  It was a collection of divergent thinkers, and we were arriving at the same conclusions, not this force-fed ‘knowledge’ society tells us about how bad it is to be a male and how sorry you should be about that.

For a while, my anger actually increased.  We were outgunned, but we had facts and reality on our side.  I would not give up until feminism had been taken down.

But…somewhere within the last 6-9 months my rage and anger had changed to understanding.  Not at once certainly, there were times I thought I didn’t know what the fuck was happening, or that my anger came back, these fucking feminists!!! But the catharsis slowly continued on.

My friend for example would never get it until his girl left him, until then I would just gingerly smile about his ‘advice’, girls would cry about the wage gap – maybe I would even tell them a fact or two, but in the end these people were lost, simply smile I knew the matrix and they did not.

I met some great people, guys from the army, guys from other countries, all these interesting, varied experiences, but we all were coming to similar conclusions.  Those who sought answers would find the truth, and it didnt matter the background except being fucked up by a girl or largely unsuccessful with girls and wondering why.

I feel it important to add at this point a short blurb about females, early on I was surprised to see girls in the manosphere, apparently ‘friendly’ to the cause.  I was like ‘oh yeah, it is self evident of course they would help!’  I am not going to go into details here, but suffice to say I view girls in the manosphere more of ‘enemies of my enemies’ rather than allies.  They have their own ego-driven agendas I have come to realize, that is fine, but it simply needs to be understood.  Girls are attracted to the manosphere because of the attention they are given among other reasons, (as a quick aside, I find it very ironic the men who susposedly ‘get it’ but still give in to female attention whoring on blogs, CH’s comments are the worst in this regard) but again at its root understand they are temporarily ‘allies’ much like Russia was during ww2.

Anyway, perhaps you might see a bit of change just in that last paragraph, normally I might be like ‘those fucking traitorous spies!  Fuck them!!!’  But its like…that is how they are.  I understand that.  It would be like being mad at gravity for being heavy – its just the way it is.  Girls are using us, and we can use them to show not every girl falls for feminism.

I slowly understood girls were simple.  Dating was simple.  There were rules you had to be aware of, completely different then conventionally taught to us, but they were there.  Girls liked things like power, status, aggression, anger, they liked being mistreated because it was drama to them, they liked talking shit, they liked trying to get a rise out of you.  I didn’t make these rules, I just came to understand them.  Gravity was heavy, I didnt make the rule, I just had to understand the rule.

I came to understand the game was rigged against males.  The prize was often not worth the hunt.  American girls by and large were obese, bitchy and self-entitled.  It is easy to rationalize not bothering with them – the whole MGTOW movement.  Regardless, I came to understand the ‘machine gunner’ approach to girls vs the ‘sniper’ because a single girl as the object of affection will ruin you.  I could be back to square one after years of growth.

I realized I could not spill my heart out to girls.  The more emotional I was, the more they disliked me.  I had to be the hard, stoic badass.  Well fine, I wanted to be that anyway.  Society had been the one to lie and say females wanted ’emotional males’.

Nothing was complicated anymore.  People say ‘girls are confusing/mysterious’ and I think, not in the slightest.  You simply need to change how you view things, you are judging by the wrong metric.  When a 24 year old girl divorces her ‘perfect’ husband everyone is confused, I’m not, she is still desirable and found some other better guy.  I see guys hugging their girls in public and only think ‘that is shortening your time with her’, his misplaced protective instincts were making him look more pathetic.  Girls gave me little beyond sex.  Guys were smarter, more loyal and could have real conversations.  Girls conversations were either to be non-existent or sexual charged, those were the new rules I was to except.  I would assume dominating body posture, I would watch hers for signs of interest, and change pace when hers faltered.  Most importantly I lived for me, not just for slamming some broad out, and it freed me from all the stupid obligations like wasting money on her when it did not to improve my chances.

EVERY girl I hooked up with beyond the first that started this whole thing…I didnt spend any money on, not a dime.  My former self would have never understood this, or thought the girls I was with were ‘just the shallow ones’.

But I understood.  All the rules, all the little games, the body language, the texts, it was complicated if you wanted it to be, but it was ultimately so simple.  You had to play the right way if you wanted to win.  If you did not want to play that was fine as well.  But I knew, I had synthesized all the information and experience from my life.  I had been playing the wrong game, or perhaps I had been playing the right game by the wrong rules, rules society purposely mis-feeds guys.  It was simple, I knew the rules now.  Confirmed by others and my own experience. I knew how things worked.

I had no reason to be mad anymore.

Afterall, a girl is just a girl.

 

Countdown: 5 traits of a MAN #3 Confidence and Ability

Today- Confidence and Ability

#5 http://wp.me/p2YaVQ-8F -Physical Traits

#4 http://wp.me/p2YaVQ-9G – Discipline

A good calm look

Today I wanted to continue my list of the countdown of what makes a REAL MAN, not some fake pua, not some fake badass that skates by this thin veneer of civilization, but of a man that regardless of circumstances will dominate.  In case this needs to be spelled out, this is a type of man that can succeed in this joke of society, and in the event of a collapse is the type of man that will survive and thrive.

That brings us to #3 Confidence and Ability, I purposely put these two together.  First of all, what do ALL puas state is sooo important?  Confidence, ‘fake it till you make it’ etc.  I do not doubt this works up to a point in getting some women to have sex with but it does not make you a real man.  You need true confidence, knowing you are the best, knowing what you are capable of.  It would not help you survive.

This is why it is related to ability.  You actually have to be able to DO something.  For all intents it does not really matter the skill, whether you are the best damn mechanic around, or you are a really good runner, you are a sharpshooter etc. you can have a real confidence because you have something real you can show.

To elucidate, fake-confidence is not rooted in anything.  You wear a funny hat or have a cocky grin and proceed simply hoping no one really calls your bluff of the airs you put on.  Again, in our society such a strategy is less likely to get you killed because of laws etc.

I read a really good article somewhere that basically stated the reason why posturing and false-confidence works is because in a dog-eat-dog or survival situation when someone acted like that they were really called out for it, meaning fights possibly to the death.  So we have engrained triggers that ‘oh this guy is acting like a badass, and he is still alive, ergo he must REALLY BE A BADASS’  Which we know is not the case.

True confidence comes from that when its put-up-or-shut-up time you actually put up.  You say you are really damn good at running?  Well lets race and see what you got.  You say you are an expert sniper?  I got a good rifle and am a good shot, lets go bet some money on this and see whats up.

When you will really be able to tell is if a collapse or something happens and all these fake-alphas are suddenly shell-shocked and looking bleary eyed at the world wondering how they are suddenly going to survive.  That expert sniper?  He already knows…one trigger pull at a time like all the rest.

Ability precedes confidence.  You can be confident and not really have anything to show for it, but it is simply a delusion, because it has no solid base.  If you lack confidence, go get an ability, improve your skills.  Start working out hard, learn how to shoot, learn how to fix things, and within a year you will be a different man.  Confidence occurs naturally.  The real kind anyway.

If you ever need a guide on what would make a real MAN think about a man about 10,000 years ago.  Was he peacocking around to rack up notch counts on a bed?  No, he was running, fighting, surviving and fucking girls in complete AWE of his power and poise and combat ability.  In truth I would be surprised if back then a ‘smirk’ existed, a real man probably had a very grim countenance while spearing down animals.  But you could see it in his eyes, he knew what he was doing, and had the skills to back it up.  He was the type of man that would shame modern day men, and modern women would probably swoon over him.

I used this avatar before years ago on message boards, and I really like it because anime-style drawing tend to capture emotions better than actual faces.  Look how the eyes are a very ‘i dont give a fuck what you think’.  THAT is the feeling you must achieve.  Your abilities are so good no one can possible compare.  If anyone wants to come try it, well ‘lets go…’.  You are going to survive anything life throws at you, this pathetic male in front of you?  He doesn’t stand a chance.

I dont give a fuck what you think