I’m falling victim to oneitis

Damn boys (and girls) I wish I had a more cheery topic, but maybe some of my readers can help me out as I am falling into oneitis (even though I have a different girl I can have sex with).  I have recently fallen VERY hard for the MILF I am currently slamming.  What didn’t help was a 2 day vacation together that was basically endless sex.

For a while I was actually distancing myself from her, she seemed like (and prob still is) playing games of a sort, but she was down to meet at a hotel/resort and paid most of the bill and we got too it.  She orgasms super easy which is kind of hot, and at the time I was just going through the motions.  After it was all over about 2-3 days the feelings hit HARD. I think about her a lot, often fantasically of ‘how cool her job is’ (flight nurse) or how big of a call she must be on.  It plays into my past as a fire fighter because of the adrenaline rush of calls and that she only goes on the ‘big ones’, so I am sitting on the road lonely, thinking of her.

A MAJOR problem is she is in a divorce battle for the kids (she might still be married legally) and supposedly can only call on private phones, so I have to wait till she calls me about 1-2 a week, and it fucks with me bad.  She has kids too which means im never #1, and she is 45, which is no good long term either.

I see a pic of her and I feel disgust that she isn’t that hot, yet emotionally I am insanely addicted…. 😦

Help me out readers…

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