Not giving a fuck allows you to focus on what matters

I am plowing through a book called ‘the subtle art of not giving a fuck’ and despite the cheeky title and the pretty abysmal first chapter of him throwing ‘fuck’ around tons, it actually gets pretty good, it talks about how our current society is in this massive nihilistic depression because we all think we ‘should’ be happy and see everyone else happy.

It is a pretty interesting book because he talks about how we need to pick virtues and goals to live by and something like ‘I want to be happy’ is a recipe for disaster because we CANNOT be happy all the time.  This is like the NAWALT girl I doted on a bit a few days ago (she left to go travel, I see how AWALT she actually was, a girl who sopism did not allow her to realize the consequence of her actions).

I tried talking to AWALT girl about how you can’t chase happiness as the goal of life, she was legitimately confused why this couldn’t be the case.  That was strike one.  Strike two was later when she mentioned she had to take her birth control pills for her bf, strike 3 came not much after when she admitted she was a heroin addict before she saw the light.

Anyway, so we only have a set number ‘of fucks to give’ a day, and when we spend them on stupid shit – namely what people think, what we ‘should’ do, if that girl is going to text etc that is less thing we can spend on stuff that should matter.  Often I waste WAY too much time with dumb bitching texting or not texting me.  This is time and brain power not devoted to writing, thinking or anything else important.

The main thing in the book is to think about what SACRIFICE we are willing to endure, not the goal.  Everyone wants a fancy car, a trip to the beach, but what is the sacrifice we are willing to pay?  Working 5 years straight at a shitty job?  Or with love, are we able to endure endless fucking games/heartbreak and lonely nights for love?

I am reminded of a bodybuilding quote ‘Everyone wants to be strong, no one wants to lift heavy weight’.  Like AWALT girl if I worked out only because ‘it was fun’ I would have left a long time ago.  There has to be virtue in our life that makes our decisions NOT based on if we feel good, or if it ‘makes us happy’.  Life is not something where happiness is a normal state.

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Don’t forget how long knowledge took to acquire

As long as you are making new mistakes it means you are still learning, a mistake I make recently I want to remind my readers is forgetting how far you have actually come – and that this gulf is very real when trying to talk to others.

I go into it a bit in this post https://eruditeknight.wordpress.com/2014/10/27/hierarchy-of-reality-processing/

Pyramid

Using this picture, consider your own quest how at one point perhaps in high school you didn’t get anything at all, or maybe precocious and understood democract vs repub. Likely it was those evil, racist old white men who just didn’t know shit.

Most people never make it past level 1.  For all intents you cannot talk to someone at a lower than single level.  Considering average football watching guy, do you think he has ANY context for globalism, AWALT, white genocide or anything?  No, either its that kim kardashin sure has a nice ass or that black guy keeps kneeling during the anthem.

The major point here, is many of the readers here, and in most redpill sites are pretty ‘high level’ if you start talking about the jews, or all women are like that, or pay gap is a lie etc no one bats an eye even if they don’t believe it.  It is because people are at a similar level.  The take home is when you are dealing with level 0/1 and you start talking about the jews controlling banking, or that obama is a cultural marxist war hawk that they think you are crazy and some fringe radical and often shut you out of the social group.

This is a mistake I make at times, forgetting it took me over 5 years to get where I am today, and I am much smarter than most people.  It is a bit like lifting weights, if you have been lifting hard for years and pick up 200 or 300 lbs you think its ‘easy’ but forget most people can’t do that, and forgot you couldn’t do it either.

We have no idea how the elite live

Something I think escapes a lot of peoples mind is that we assume how WE think is how others think.  I assume most of my readers are males of middle class birth.  How we think is approximate for others in our class, we respect or fear the law, we just want some time off, think its a big deal if a hot girl is into us etc.

We do NOT understand what is it like to have endless money, time, girl attention and so on.  I was struck by this story https://www.rt.com/sport/356729-usain-bolt-student-photo/ which is generally forgetable as its the olypmic star caught with some young 20 year old he fucked and it comes out she is a widow on some drug lord.

Think about it from both of these perspectives, from bolts he likely has hundreds of girls throwing themselves at him, it is impossible for us to know what that is like with endless girls flaking on us, being coy etc.  I recently read a theory that went in this age of sexual liberty girls get a taste of alpha cock and assume because they got pumped by it, they deserve it, thus leaving the ‘regular’ guys out in the cold

From this girls, its even more distorted than I can imagine.  From her pics she doesnt look that hot, so why he went with her I am not sure.  Regardless so she is a ‘student’ yet married to a drug lord at one time.  This means she likely had ENDLESS money thrown at her.  Plane rides, vacations, drinks/parties every day.  Something a working fool can never imagine.

Its all the SJW rage to talk about ‘white male privilege’ but anything who lives in the real world knows this is a joke. Females have privilege nonexistent for most males, and if she is remotely attractive she can jump social classes a way a male can not.

The point is not ‘woe is me as a white male’ but that our mindset is utterly wrong and inadequacy to deal with other people in other situations.  It just hit me right now, but think of the girl I was talking about the last couple of posts, she comes from an upper class family where they have at least 2-3 houses and she gets one for herself.  She still occasionally worked retail jobs, but never had to.  But because she is attractive, and no morals she sluts around and lives only for hedonism.

In a lot of ways its not any different than ms drug lord student.  Bouncing from guy to guy wanting to be choked out, utterly INCOMPREHENSIBLE about what life might be like for a ‘normal’ person.  It is normal for her to get pounded at a moments notice from any guy she wants.

The depravity of younger generations pt2

One of the most disturbing things with modern girls is an inversion of logic when it comes to sex.  To anyone with any normal brain, physical intamacy follows a guide like this:

Hand shake < hug < kiss < naked grinding < oral sex < vaginal sex

It makes a lot of sense, after all if someone has a disease, it is only your hand and it can be washed off.  Hugging does not exchange fluids etc.  I don’t need to delinate this, as it better be obvivous.

However, I have had many girls tell me during hookups, or heard from other guys, and girls just discussing some of the following:

“I’d fuck a guy before I hugged him”

“I don’t kiss people, I don’t want to get close” (said by a girl just fucked)

“oral sex isn’t real sex”

Isn’t it pretty common knowledge from modern day sluts that if you have logistics in your favor the first day almost ALWAYS ends in oral sex?  Never mind of course that male to female transmission is MUCH higher than vice versa and that oral sex from a women’s point of view is almost as bad for diseases.  Female logic isn’t known for its logic.

I find it deeply disturbing that most modern girls do NOT want to hold my hand, yet will gladly take my cock in their hand, their mouth, their vagina or their ass.  After all they don’t ‘want to get attached’.

The last girl I messed around with, the one who wanted to be beat, I was talking with her and asked why when we were going at it why she didn’t want to kiss she answered “well I don’t want to act like we are in a relationship.”  She proceeded to say how kissing was for people who were close.  This is a girl who wanted me to literally choke her with my cock and then choke her out.  I don’t talk with her anymore.

Staggering that stuff like this can be rationalized.  Do they not understand STDs or pregnancy?  (Oh yeah, this girl also was like ‘I’m open to raw dog, the guy just needs to pull out is all’)  I think the answer must loosely be yes.  Pregnancy from precum is real.  Same with getting diseases from anything sexual.

Its a brave new world we are in where guys and girls cant kiss or hug each other, but she’ll spread her ass to get rammed and be down for getting gang banged.

Good Guys always suffer

Th depravity of younger generations

I recently was on a date with a younger girl, she was I think 22, to society she appears a cute little NICE GIRL.  I was surprised by how utterly deprave she was, and I know this is pretty typical given my experience with other young women who openly talk to strangers (me) about sleeping with guys to get items, entrance to places, money, or just fill the void in themselves.

This girl admitted to me she was a ‘submissive’ and before I get into that, somehow justified her ‘taking control’ until the sexual encounter at which point she would let go.  The first BPD girl I was with who broke my heart was the same way – at the time my blue pill self seemed ‘oh what a big strong girl!” now I see how psychologically unstable it is.

She said she would shut guys down until she was ready, when I said this didn’t seem submissive she didn’t see a problem with it.  (Clearly the date wasnt going good if it was interview time, I realized that)

The debauchery she engaged in started with her admitting she was bi – is there any young women these days NOT bi anymore?  The details were disturbing how she likes to be tied up, abused, choked, beaten, gagged. Told what to do ‘I love it when guys shove me to the floor and tell me to suck their cock’.  Engaged in all sorts of 3-ways.  Liked being spanked to orgasm etc.

The real point of all this though, isn’t that this is just some random dirty whore, this is nearly ALL young women.  That cute waitress playing coy?  That nurse at the hospital?  ALL of them want acts more deprave than most normal men able comfortable giving.  I have had conversations with guys confirming these facts.

Why do women want to be degraded?  I have no idea but its disturbing.

A small story of how young women aren’t marry-able nor datable anymore

Between smart phones and social media and femenism/slut/gurl power there isn’t much left of modern young women in their shattered ADD dopamine addicted minds.  Even super PUAs like Roosh (regardless what you think of him) has recently had an about-face regarding that hooking up with women was ultimately pointless and that being a ‘clown’ for them got tiring.

Here is a short story of a recent encounter;  I wrote my motorcycle to this small cliff jumping local swim hole, mostly guys around.  I jump a few times and see two cute girls roll in. I go over to talk (I really dont give a fuck anymore) and they seem friendly.  Of course before this they are both posing with their smart phones for the perfect shot of how ‘adventurous’ they are.

They seem interested at first in me, I’m in good shape, plus got bad boy biker appeal.  But there are a lot of guys around, one slowly drifts away to go talk to them.  I ask the other if they are alone or with friends ‘oh its just the two of us, no friends’ (this was an out I gave her to see if she’d admit bf etc) Other friend moves in on this tattooed loser who is smoking. Literally the typical trash girls always fall for.  For the record this girls are both 20, tan and decent, the average guy would give them about an 8 probably.

I leave the other one and just watch a bit.  Like clockwork guys start to swarm the girls (what it’d be like to be a hot girl for a day…) they hold each other phone to video the super adventurous jump and show the world just how brave (and cute while doing it~) they are.

I watch a bit more, then a new group rolls in, they yell at the girls, they yell back.  “Frank where were you?”  “Oh around.”

They know each other.  They are friends.  Funny, because they told me they didn’t have any friends here leaving it up for something if they felt like it.

I laughed and left while they were taking some more selfies.

I don’t feel bad about this encounter at all because its pretty typical,I just feel sad that AWALT and the likelyhood of finding a decent non-internet addicted girl is close to zero.

Men are slowly waking up

One thing I notice a lot online is a vast multitude of people, and especially white men who are waking up and understanding what is really at stake here. People from widely diverse backgrounds and forums who are all seeing a little angle of the illusion we are fed and saying ‘I don’t think this is right’, and its gaining momentum.

A irony is the more the powers and money that be try to stop this – and boy stop it they do – the more proof of everything ‘radical’ that is being claimed is true. In case you are unaware, two of the largest offenders are jewbo…facebook and youtube, where any pro-white comment is censored and deleted and routinely profiles or videos removed completely. Of course you can be pro-jamal or homo as much as you want and everyone sings praises on your tolerance and diversity.

What is so encouraging though, is every on mainstream media stores – very heavily censored typically so they either don’t last long, or aren’t censored and become true reflections of how much people hate the shit they are fed by multicultraism and cultural Marxism. Very typically it will be some story by a women – nearly always a women as they often are the most unwitting of pawns to the forces of money/darkness – praising some aspect of cultural destruction or another. Often it is things like how great it is women are working longer hours, women are allowed into combat, having less kids, men are more in touch with their feelings, how great it is to have a lot of mixed cultural friends etc etc ad nusaum in every sense. But…you scroll down to the comments and instead of endless dick sucking of how great it is that women don’t raise kids anymore you see…dissidence. You see criticism of the narrative, that maybe having women in power isn’t so good, that blacks maybe actually are more violent or dumb than whites, that forced integration isn’t that good of an idea.

Of course there are wildly different ideas, but what matters is there is finally divergence from the established liberal thought infecting everything. Again to speak candidly, there are a LOT of liberal ideas I agree with – typically the ideas never put forth instead of their endless ‘other love’ and diversity and faggotry and affirmative action that have helped ruin the world.

But gaming forums, exercise forums, relationship forums, news articles, blogs, areas across the internet that share only the commonality that men and/or whites frequent it and they are starting to have an emergent phenomenon of realizing the game against us, and starting to wake up. It is great, I hope it does not get stopped and I am not sure it can because we have finally appropriated a lot of their weapons against us such as shaming and terms like ‘racist’/sexist. There is a cold rationality awaking that no longer cares if you call it racist, or sexist or antijew because all that term proves was how right their own convictions are. Because that is The Script, and we are finally figuring it out, and ready to accept our label but now we are ready to change the ending.