A girl is just a girl

I don’t talk about girls much anymore, esp. given the way this blog started.  I guess that is the natural flow of a lot of redpill writers.

I recently have completed over a 30 day pure monk mode challenge, essentially it is no sex, no porn, masturbation etc.  Any guy knows how hard this is.  Further, I have abstained from chasing girls at all, no online dating, no flirting and so on.  I really needed it, I feel like my mind is reset to a pretty good place.

It is really easy to give into the hate.  I know I did.  You can read the first 2-3 years which was mostly rage at the injustice.  This is where the mra, mgtow movements come from.  I considered myself mgtow for years, but I don’t anymore.  I will talk about it some other time, but essentially it was a loser mentality.

I had wrote something similar years ago: https://eruditeknight.wordpress.com/2014/05/23/a-punch-is-just-a-punch-a-girl-is-just-a-girl/

I kind of got it back then, but not to the same level.  I used to be really angry that girls have to DO SHIT and can skate through life with endless attention and free rides.  It pissed me off so bad, that is a major undercurrent of hate in the MGTOW movement, is that a girl merely needs to look cute (and usually not even that) and will have thousands of followers, endless free dinners, new guys, new cocks…

But…that is the way they are.  They are more like NPCs in videogames.  They get the attention but don’t really achieve much in life.  They dont philosophize, they don’t invent, they don’t conquer…which btw feminists how many years of this shit do you need to finally actually have girls ‘do’ something?

If I was a spirit and was given the choice between a man and a woman, I would choose man everytime.  I don’t get the ‘easy mode’ life, but instead I can think critically, I can live a life of my own choosing, I can have highs and lows that a woman would never understand.  I win or lose by my hands alone, not getting carried.

Schopenhauer was a great philsopher no one has heard of, his quote here is appropriate:

You need only look at the way in which she is formed, to see that woman is not meant to undergo great labor, whether of the mind or of the body. She pays the debt of life not by what she does, but by what she suffers; by the pains of child-bearing and care for the child, and by submission to her husband, to whom she should be a patient and cheering companion. The keenest sorrows and joys are not for her, nor is she called upon to display a great deal of strength. The current of her life should be more gentle, peaceful and trivial than man’s, without being essentially happier or unhappier.

Women are directly fitted for acting as the nurses and teachers of our early childhood by the fact that they are themselves childish, frivolous and short-sighted; in a word, they are big children all their life long–a kind of intermediate stage between the child and the full-grown man, who is man in the strict sense of the word.”

 

Commitment to discipline for 2017

New Years resolutions are often lame because they fall apart so fast, I hated being at the gym and it was flooded with new people, by about march it was back to being empty and no one hanging out in the free weight zone.  But, for those who are committed, it can be a nice thing to be like ‘this year is going to be different’.

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For me, I am going to be much more abstinent.  This is my major goal for the year as well as reduce non-productive internet use.  The first one though is something many guys really need to do, but often live in denial.  Porn, hookups, ONS, FWB etc are all really destructive to guys, its something that makes us think we are ‘winning’ when in fact we are not.

I have had my share from my pua days, and it was useful at the time to see ‘it could be done’ but all it really did was make me loosely addicted to it, as well as see how absolutely deprave women are.  I have had a bunch of ‘highlights’ ranging from a nurse I was banging and finding out she was married, to a few various girls that really loved be choked/slapped/tied down, for a man trying to do ANYTHING in this life, that depravity starts to rub off and its good.

I am taking an abstinence break for a while as it helps me think clearer.  My words flow easier, I can recall the right word, and my endurance is higher.  My strength does not change, so I won’t bullshit you on that kind of stuff, some of my best gym PRs were when I was addicted to porn, but running is absolutely destroyed and it ‘drains’ the body of some sort of vital energy, this is esoteric but has been very true for me.

Anyway heres to a good year, and if you are engaging in any positive changes lets hear about them.

Loneliness is a virtue

Very few people know what loneliness is, I think a majority of my readers actually might more than most.  I don’t mean in a ‘loser’ way but that certainly can suffice.  I am referring to a larger extent of physical or intellectual loneliness.  If you are not watching the lastest shows, that puts you in the ‘weird’ came pretty fast.

Most modern shows are jokes, slapstick, toilet humor that is literally stupefying, yet 90% of people watch this shit.  That or sports.

Reading books puts you in rarefied company as well.

But, I think this generation more than most men must learn to deal with TRUE loneliness.  Girls have been destroyed by feminism, they are not interested in having families, and sex has been reduced to a commodity.  When girls can rack up 10, 20, 50 partners and its no big deal (on a dating site okc, there is a question ‘if you partner has 14 sexual partners, this sounds? And almost every girl writes ‘normal’)  NORMAL.  Normal that some bitch has taken 14+ cocks straight into her womb, only staving off pregnancy due to pills.

How can a girl like this EVER be loyal?  They can’t.  Guys are driven by logic and duty, it is much more normal to assume they can rack up kills (still not a good idea) and realize they need to commit to this family, whereas a girl ‘oh he doesnt make me FEEL GOOD anymore!’

The sad thing is, most girls are not capable of conversation, loyalty, or much of anything beyond sex anymore.  It is a vicious circle of using tthem for the only thing they are good for, and it only leaves them worse.

A man who has any drive, any talent is going to be alone for the most part.  It is not a joke to say I consider some of my major readers and commenters my ‘friends’ like Ryu, Thor, monolith, TAnon because of an intellectual rarity that is so often absent ‘in real life’.

It sucks to be alone, but even when I have been with girls, its distant, like a drug.  They don’t really understand anything.  They can’t.  When it comes down to it, we are alone in our mind and our heart.  That is a reality so many people do not understand.  You have to live in the darkness for a while to understand this.

What we are up against socially

Here is a list of a majority of problems we face as far as degeneracy of society:

Over 70% of women have tattoos (40% of men) I suspect this number is near 90% for millennials. All those individual butterflies…

Feminism is utterly rampart

College indoc camps are in full swing, promoting a host of degeneracy like LGBQTxxx style acceptance and shaming normalcy

Sex for fun/hoookup culture is still wild

‘Open’ relationships are all the rage right now, typically what this means is a women who is ‘married’ and the guy is ok with being cuckolded due to his social programming and ALMOST ALWAYS the girl can sleep around but the guy doesn’t have anyone else.

Marriage is a failing institution – with gays being allowed, and open relationships that doesnt even get to the problem of adultery.

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My recent post about the NAWALT woman as some readers suggested was premature – having talked to her a little, I realize a lot of it was projection.  Having a world traveler girl friend seems cool on paper but it suggests: whimsicalness, flighty, inability to endure ‘unfun’ times.  Plus, as much as I like sex like every guy, I am at the point where hookups hold much less sway on me and if a girl isn’t long-term why am I hanging around with her?

 

My recent experience with a NAWALT (unironic)

Any of my long time readers know I came redpill out of the anti-feminist/pua movement, I’ve banged my share of girls but in general are very distrustful, and a degree of misogyny given how shitty modern women are.  Imagine my surprise meeting a ‘not all women are like that’ and that’s not being coy.

I was set up on a pseudo date by a friend of a friend sort of thing.  I wasn’t expecting much but we took a walk and I was surprised by how open-minded she was (she’s 22) about some heavy philosophical concepts.  It is extremely important to note that she grew up in a very small town, and after graduating high school LEFT the usa to go travel and scuba dive for money.  Yes, I know the prediction is a hyper lib girl that slept her way across the globe.

The thing that blew my mind was how easy the conversation was.  We shared our stories, her of traveling the world, mine of my own travels and insights into life.  And you know what was so interesting and novel?  SHE LISTENED.  There wasn’t the issue of nearly every modern female who is incredible sophist, vapid and narcissistic.  Where they feel the need to one up legitimate stories with some pathetic story that is neither related nor equivalent in level of epicness.

She showed a DEFERENCE to my experiences, my stories, my wisdom. I really needed this as a reminder to myself that I actually know what the fuck is going on in this world, and having stupid bitches judge me is not an accurate metric of my intellect.

After the walk, she invited me later to dinner at her house.  She cooked a great meal and we had a conversation at the dinner table for 4 hours about philosophy, reality, and things like that.  She was young, didn’t know nearly the stuff I did, but she had an earnestness and a desire to learn.

No, I didn’t bang her, but intellectually it was so fun and novel for once.  I had told her it was refreshing, because a true conversation requires BOTH people to possess a level of humility that they indeed could be wrong (therefore open to a new idea) and a willingness to learn.

Anyway, it was a great conversation/ ‘date’. I think the real take away are there are great girls out there still, really rare, and the fact she escaped the college indoc. camp is especially notable.

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Super Moon and why we stopped being ‘great’

Just finished looking at the super Moon through my telescope.  I have always been an astronomy guy for a long time, even read an astro-physics book for fun in between my cult marx college classes.  Looking at the Moon puts me in a melancholic mood of what we could have been.

It hangs there in the sky, a testament of what we once were, what we once did, and were capable of.  Now merely a dead tomb where our betters once tread.  From my readings, JFK appeared to me the last real president we ever had.  The last of the ‘noble aristocracy’ types: he actually served in the military among other things.  But he inspired us to BE BETTER.  None of this degenerate bullshit of ‘you are fine just how you are’.

He appealed to what we once claimed to stand for as Americans, a sense of adventure, of pride, of challenge.  Within 8 years we were on the moon using calculators weaker than modern phones.

JFK-  “Whether it will become a force for good or ill depends on man, and only if the United States occupies a position of pre-eminence can we help decide whether this new ocean will be a sea of peace or a new terrifying theater of war. ”

Back when we knew America was a special place, that we were smarter than the rest of the planet, more driven, more focused, and no other race could compare, only we could do this.

We choose to go to the Moon! … We choose to go to the Moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are easy, but because they are hard; because that goal will serve to organize and measure the best of our energies and skills, because that challenge is one that we are willing to accept, one we are unwilling to postpone, and one we intend to win ..”

I was not alive during his time, I can only look back and wonder what it must have been like to have wonder, to have drive at what we are doing.  Instead of shoveling shit with endless minorities and traitorous white/libs trying to bring us down.  I am not sure we will ever make it off the planet again short of some massive thing we can only speculate.

Now, all we have is the collapsing Pax Americana.  Trump represents perhaps a dying gasp of those who still want greatness, and serves as a reminder of just how different most people are, literally suicidal and complacent.

A higher Nationalism

One thing missing in the general nationalism movement is any sort of discernible goal.  A lot revolve around mundane things like get the mexicans out of here, etc etc which probably has to happen, but its to what end?  There is a little known author whose name popped up repeadetly that I decided to read some of his stuff, Julias Evola, and I must say I am impressed.

Essentially he advocates a spiritualism of sorts in a nationalistic beat, that a country is really just land and it is the beliefs that bind me – a belief in honor and duty that transcends ALL else.

Here is a great quote from ‘Men Among Ruins’ where he talks about what is needed vs what is insufficient:

“The substance of every true and stable political organism is something resembling an Order a Mannerbund in charge of the principle of the imperium, comprising men who see loyalty as the basis of their honor.  But in time of crisis and of an overall moral, political, and social disintegration (as in the case of our day and age0 a generic reference of the ‘nation’ does not suffice for reconstructive work unless such an idea assumes a revolutionary overtone including elements of a properly political order weakened to various degrees.”

This has got me thinking a lot lately, because America as a place is decent, but in my heart that is never what I ‘stood for’ in a way, it’s just land, I just happened to be born here.  It’s like people who were born in one city and LOVE their football team and insist that this is objectively the best team, and even if they were born elsewhere would love this team (I’ve had people make that exact argument), I long had figured out there had to a transcendental reason and ideal.  One that someone on the west coast, or texas or the east would come to the same conclusion – a HIGHER TRUTH.

It is likely no mistake the utter mixing that has happened to all races, the inter-breeding, the lack of real borders between ideas. Just one giant cesspool and sewer.  If there is any hope for how great we could become, it is going to be a long hard, likely bloody road – but first we need to know what our goal even is.

 

This song is actually pretty heavy anti-white, but the lyrics capture the point we need to embrace “WE CARRY IN OUR HEARTS THE TRUE COUNTRY, AND THAT CANNOT BE STOLEN, WE FOLLOW IN THE STEPS OF OUR ANCESTRY AND THAT CANNOT BE BROKEN.”