The isolated culture

I have been busy the last month with a lot going on in my personal life.  But, the story I want to relate is last night I was visiting my parents, it had been a while since I was there.  They live in a rural area, same place I grew up.  Growing up as a kid was awesome running through the woods, exploring, traveling all over swimming in lakes, rolling down hills and so on. I grew up in the late 80s/early 90s, which arguably growing up in the 90s was the last ‘real’ time to grow up.

After that, electronics, internet, and 9-11 panic forever, and I mean FOREVER ruined our culture.  For those of you too young to remember, it was completely different in the 90s.  There was hope, optimism, trust and in general just fun.  After 911 it was low trust, isolation.

Anyway, so back then people routinely went to this place called ‘outside’.  Grilling, hanging out on swings, sitting on benches, going to parks.

I took my dirtbike out for a ride, riding past around 100 houses spread over the miles.  It was a nice evening, cool, clear, a perfect time to be out.  You know what I saw when I was out?

Not one person outside.  The local park was quite, all the people’s swings, benches, chairs outside were empty.  All that every house had in common was the blue glow of the tv.  Every single house.

It really hit me in that moment driving through the place of my childhood.  It had changed so much, and this was flyover, rural country.  No one had any reason at all to talk to their neighbors.  I doubted many of them even knew their neighbors name.

How was our culture ever going to recover from this? I doubt it will.   It is going to get far more worse, before some hyper-extreme group/event rallies us back – if it happens.

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Regarding porn and nofap

Porn will fuck you up, and I am going to talk a little about it, the nofap movement, feminism, mgtow etc.  I have come across pretty hard on nofap in the past  and to be clear, the majority of my argument stemmed from that the ‘nofap movement’ was almost entirely based on a shaming movement and the only way to ‘be a man’ was to fuck girls.  Given that nofap was mostly a reddit movement, it was really weird the pua influences (that of ‘fucking girls’ = being a man) the were behind the scenes.

The mgtow movement was likewise destroyed by the incessant influence of focusing on girls (ironic).  Missing from both was the personal improvement aspect.  Mgotw sought to run from girls (bitching the whole time) and nofap sought to run to girls.

That being said, let’s get to porn and masturbation itself.  First, realize that there IS a porn conspiracy – meaning one company, owned very likely by a jew, that owns nearly all internet porn.  Giving away a very addictive thing FOR FREE.  Whats funny about that link, is I must have tripped some flag as various crypto YKWs come out of the woodwork to protest about porn not being bad, I give no proof and so on.

I admit I have had a problem with porn in the past, and the longer I am away from it the more damaging it is in retrospect.  It is insanely addictive, and despite my personal strong will I still find myself dragged back once in a while.  People who think it is innocuous, innocent etc are outright delusional.  The problems of porn are many, and its insane to think that seeing hot naked bodies every night is not messing up your ability to deal with reality.  I know a lot of ‘alpha’ish type guys who see no problem with endless porn, or the big fad these days is ‘girls doing porn’, chaterbate, or various cam sites.  How are you going to have a family or find a cute girl that even remotely compares when EVERY girl online has huge tits, a perfect ass that takes anything you put in it, can deepthroat everything and so on?  You cant.  Therefore, you won’t procreate.   (((Perfect.)))

Porn (and masturbation) blow out your dopamine receptors such that regular life truly starts to ‘lack that edge’ meaning it is boring, routine, and sucks.  It is easy to get stuck in an endless personal decline that mirrors society in that ‘real life’ sucks so you medicate yourself with porn, drugs and escapism. In your personal life you should strive to be completely porn free, and for most guys that means nearly or completely masturbation free.

Some guys will say ‘how the hell can you go without porn or masturbation?’  Well, here is a personal anecdote: I never had masturbated or seen porn until my early 20s (religious shame mostly) and while that may be hard to believe, try to give me the benefit of the doubt as I admit later I became addicted to it.  The first time I ever sat down to watch a porn, I did it mostly as a curiosity, it was driven by some post I read about how big of things girls can stick in themselves, it was a little deprave admittedly, but it mostly driven by curiosity to ‘see what it was like’. It was so intense I orgasmed without even needing to touch myself, that perhaps should have been a warning of its potency.

It set me off on a dark path on mgtow-ism, pua random girl fucking, and in general a nihilism that didn’t exist in my late teens, early 20s.  I am not blaming porn for all of this, but it is certainly a contributor.  I noticed my own cardio was worse the more I watched it and so on.  Keep in mind, I watched at most like 1/night but was typically like 3-4 times a week at my worst, so certainly on the lower end but I still felt like it was subtly fucking me up as much as I wanted to rationalize it away.

There is a CIA concept called ‘sliding’ or ‘sleding’ which essentially is that if people start getting close to some dark truth, certain words will trigger responses in that person, or people around you to ‘slide’ off that conversation path.  Some of the most obvious are if you mention jews, anything with racist overtones and so on. Here is a humorous example of this: https://youtu.be/ejvjQ7LWW4w?t=4m34s

then skip forward to 6:12ish.

Regardless, porn also intensifies and outright creates fetishes, I think this is why gays, anal sex and so on are becoming so much more the norm.  We start with something vanilla, then we want more, more intensity, more curiosity, then suddenly we are watching people get tied up, or killed, or multiple gangbangs etc.  Keep in mind anal sex was viewed as a taboo (after all its dangerous and not procreative) yet very few guys or even girls would think its ‘weird’ to do, rather you see all this ‘ass eating’/fart smelling degeneracy everywhere.

Anyway, this has been pretty long, but if you are like most guys, try to reduce your masturbation and porn as much as you can.  Dont say you will ‘never do it again’ as you will fail and relapse, try for realistic goals like 1/week or a couple times a month, that way you see actually progress.  Again, from personal experience even though I occasionally still fail my distance from it makes it easier to stay away, and each relapse feels like such shit it doubles my efforts to go longer without it.

Do this FOR YOURSELF.  Not so you get a gf, not so you get laid or whatever.  Do it so your dopamine receptors can heal and you can enjoy life again instead of being medicated against your will.

MGTOW, Sleeping Beauty, and the general slide of society

Society does a remarkably good job at convincing us that ‘things are getting better all the time’ when in fact things are pretty shitty.  I remember a youtube video from some guy named amazng athetist, he reminds me of a reddit faggot, but his point was pretty solid when he was saying about how society act like we are the most enlightened period to have ever existed in history.  Of course it was sarcasm, but it made me question the veneer of just how laughable we actually are.  Walk down any major street and try to earnestly convince yourself we are in some sort of utopia or highlight of human history.

Long time readers may know that I was part of the MGTOW movement near its infancy (damn, what was that, like early 2010s?) and for the most part it was a fairly legit movement that these days is largely co-opted and pretty pathetic.  This post is not to bash MGTOW, so much as a large saying from there went along the lines of ‘if you want prince charming, you better be a princess’.  MGTOW hate women to be blunt, and the reality is 90%+ of women deserve scorn, having rode the wave of cultural marxism contributing little to society’s advancement, but to go NAWALT for a minute, things were not always like that.

I came across an old children’s book, Sleeping Beauty, having not read it in over 20 years.  I was blown away by of course white protagonists, a ‘hot’ main female lead, a brave/strong male and of course the whole ‘rescue the damsel in distress’.   Its ironic because cultural marxism has destroyed nearly every one of these things now – men shouldn’t be strong, women shouldnt be judged for looks, and why the fuck are you saving me misogynist?

It’s really sad, because THIS IS HOW THE SEXES ARE.  Men are designed to want to sacrifice and save the woman, and a woman SHOULD want to be loyal,caring and eventually have kids with a guy.  Instead we get this shithole where men are wrong for even acting on instincts.

Reading the story was like a weird time capsule to another timeline, when things made sense, when little girls envisioned a brave guy fighting for them, not some male-hating propaganda they get in college now.

I’ve seen a very strong change in society just in my life, it is absolutely sad how shitty it has become.  We got a long way to fall, but maybe we got a long way to go back up if we ever decide to re-embrace virtues.

The most elite cavalry in history: The Hussars

I almost almost 100% Polish, an ancestry I am very proud of.  For some reason in USA polish has somewhat of a bad opinion.  Maybe that is my cult marx schooling.  The more I learned on my own the more I realized how badass the Polish have been.

http://www.returnofkings.com/64390/3-men-who-saved-the-west

“In 1683 AD, The Ottoman Turks were staging a massive assault on Vienna, a major strategic point which, if taken, would leave the doors of Europe wide open for Islamic domination. Again Western forces were severely outnumbered. A coalition of Germanic nobles, The Holy Roman Empire, and the Polish Lithuanian Commonwealth, were up against 300,000 Islamic invaders.

The fortifications of Vienna were the strongest and most advanced for their time, with hundreds of state-of-the-art cannons placed strategically across the walls. Turkish sappers dug tunnels under the walls and placed kegs of black powder in key areas.

For two months Vienna was cut off and starved. The walls were being blown to pieces and food supplies were non-existent. Just when the city was about to fall, 80,000 of Europe’s finest, under the command of King Sobieski, came to Vienna’s defense. King Sobieski, a tactical genius, had roughly 60,000 infantry men fight earlier in the day.

Then after hours of fighting, the Turks were worn and tired. King Sobieski then led the largest calvary charge in history. All at once 20,000 horsemen charged downhill at the exhausted Turks. At the front of the charge were 3,000 Polish Hussars; the most well trained, best equipped, badass, heavy calvary ever.

The result was a bloodbath. Not until modern immigration policy has the Islamic world ever tried to invade the West at such a scale.”

In WW2 the much lauded Royal Airforce was in fact heavily staffed by polish fighter pilot exiles.  In fact in the battle of britian want to take a guess what unit got a MAJORITY of the kills?  The Polish one.

A girl is just a girl

I don’t talk about girls much anymore, esp. given the way this blog started.  I guess that is the natural flow of a lot of redpill writers.

I recently have completed over a 30 day pure monk mode challenge, essentially it is no sex, no porn, masturbation etc.  Any guy knows how hard this is.  Further, I have abstained from chasing girls at all, no online dating, no flirting and so on.  I really needed it, I feel like my mind is reset to a pretty good place.

It is really easy to give into the hate.  I know I did.  You can read the first 2-3 years which was mostly rage at the injustice.  This is where the mra, mgtow movements come from.  I considered myself mgtow for years, but I don’t anymore.  I will talk about it some other time, but essentially it was a loser mentality.

I had wrote something similar years ago: https://eruditeknight.wordpress.com/2014/05/23/a-punch-is-just-a-punch-a-girl-is-just-a-girl/

I kind of got it back then, but not to the same level.  I used to be really angry that girls have to DO SHIT and can skate through life with endless attention and free rides.  It pissed me off so bad, that is a major undercurrent of hate in the MGTOW movement, is that a girl merely needs to look cute (and usually not even that) and will have thousands of followers, endless free dinners, new guys, new cocks…

But…that is the way they are.  They are more like NPCs in videogames.  They get the attention but don’t really achieve much in life.  They dont philosophize, they don’t invent, they don’t conquer…which btw feminists how many years of this shit do you need to finally actually have girls ‘do’ something?

If I was a spirit and was given the choice between a man and a woman, I would choose man everytime.  I don’t get the ‘easy mode’ life, but instead I can think critically, I can live a life of my own choosing, I can have highs and lows that a woman would never understand.  I win or lose by my hands alone, not getting carried.

Schopenhauer was a great philsopher no one has heard of, his quote here is appropriate:

You need only look at the way in which she is formed, to see that woman is not meant to undergo great labor, whether of the mind or of the body. She pays the debt of life not by what she does, but by what she suffers; by the pains of child-bearing and care for the child, and by submission to her husband, to whom she should be a patient and cheering companion. The keenest sorrows and joys are not for her, nor is she called upon to display a great deal of strength. The current of her life should be more gentle, peaceful and trivial than man’s, without being essentially happier or unhappier.

Women are directly fitted for acting as the nurses and teachers of our early childhood by the fact that they are themselves childish, frivolous and short-sighted; in a word, they are big children all their life long–a kind of intermediate stage between the child and the full-grown man, who is man in the strict sense of the word.”

 

Commitment to discipline for 2017

New Years resolutions are often lame because they fall apart so fast, I hated being at the gym and it was flooded with new people, by about march it was back to being empty and no one hanging out in the free weight zone.  But, for those who are committed, it can be a nice thing to be like ‘this year is going to be different’.

grandma

For me, I am going to be much more abstinent.  This is my major goal for the year as well as reduce non-productive internet use.  The first one though is something many guys really need to do, but often live in denial.  Porn, hookups, ONS, FWB etc are all really destructive to guys, its something that makes us think we are ‘winning’ when in fact we are not.

I have had my share from my pua days, and it was useful at the time to see ‘it could be done’ but all it really did was make me loosely addicted to it, as well as see how absolutely deprave women are.  I have had a bunch of ‘highlights’ ranging from a nurse I was banging and finding out she was married, to a few various girls that really loved be choked/slapped/tied down, for a man trying to do ANYTHING in this life, that depravity starts to rub off and its good.

I am taking an abstinence break for a while as it helps me think clearer.  My words flow easier, I can recall the right word, and my endurance is higher.  My strength does not change, so I won’t bullshit you on that kind of stuff, some of my best gym PRs were when I was addicted to porn, but running is absolutely destroyed and it ‘drains’ the body of some sort of vital energy, this is esoteric but has been very true for me.

Anyway heres to a good year, and if you are engaging in any positive changes lets hear about them.

Loneliness is a virtue

Very few people know what loneliness is, I think a majority of my readers actually might more than most.  I don’t mean in a ‘loser’ way but that certainly can suffice.  I am referring to a larger extent of physical or intellectual loneliness.  If you are not watching the lastest shows, that puts you in the ‘weird’ came pretty fast.

Most modern shows are jokes, slapstick, toilet humor that is literally stupefying, yet 90% of people watch this shit.  That or sports.

Reading books puts you in rarefied company as well.

But, I think this generation more than most men must learn to deal with TRUE loneliness.  Girls have been destroyed by feminism, they are not interested in having families, and sex has been reduced to a commodity.  When girls can rack up 10, 20, 50 partners and its no big deal (on a dating site okc, there is a question ‘if you partner has 14 sexual partners, this sounds? And almost every girl writes ‘normal’)  NORMAL.  Normal that some bitch has taken 14+ cocks straight into her womb, only staving off pregnancy due to pills.

How can a girl like this EVER be loyal?  They can’t.  Guys are driven by logic and duty, it is much more normal to assume they can rack up kills (still not a good idea) and realize they need to commit to this family, whereas a girl ‘oh he doesnt make me FEEL GOOD anymore!’

The sad thing is, most girls are not capable of conversation, loyalty, or much of anything beyond sex anymore.  It is a vicious circle of using tthem for the only thing they are good for, and it only leaves them worse.

A man who has any drive, any talent is going to be alone for the most part.  It is not a joke to say I consider some of my major readers and commenters my ‘friends’ like Ryu, Thor, monolith, TAnon because of an intellectual rarity that is so often absent ‘in real life’.

It sucks to be alone, but even when I have been with girls, its distant, like a drug.  They don’t really understand anything.  They can’t.  When it comes down to it, we are alone in our mind and our heart.  That is a reality so many people do not understand.  You have to live in the darkness for a while to understand this.