Remember the basics with women: Actions > Words

I am going to present to you two girls in my life that are ready to get the boot from my mind as a lesson for those occasionally stuck in girl’s wiles.  I am no pro, far from it, but I have come a very long way and can offer you advice simply based on how addicted I was at times to girls, and how it occasionally resurfaces.

The two girls are two recent slams of mine, this 19 year old and this MILF, for a very brief reminder, I took 19yo virginity about a year ago, I never esp. liked her by she was someone I hung out with and always wished that she was more entertaining but lacked a key vital spark, MILF was a ONS that was a pretty sick take down I wrote about, she was a crazy fun fuck – really lack inhibitions, guess the rumor of nurses being good lays is true.

I treated 19yo kind of like shit, mainly because I knew there was no future and she existed to see how much I could craft her sexuality and how much a girl would take in terms of abuse.  I pushed it pretty hard with a different girl in the past, and in this regard they are stunning.  Her major issue other than lacking energy was this independence/defiance, and she was conservative so this wasnt a liberal thing.  To any girl reading this: DEFIANCE/’INDEPENDENCE’ IS NOT HOT AT ALL – despite anything your fat single friends tell you.

I’d have kicked her earlier, but it was so funny watching this girl, I could get her to drive 10 hours for a fuck and remorselessly kick her out of my truck and busting a nut, I was a bit stunned at my coldness, but she would always be back.  She has been at college a year now, and while I could tolerate her at first, she thinks she is real cute playing games like waiting to text back, being vague etc, the change is definitely notable to me.

Whats funny though, if beyond an intellectual amusement I give a shit about her, I broke her pretty far to my sexual will, and she will have a tough time finding a guy that was like EK in bed.  But thats what happens, when a girl is shitty or evasive I could give a shit about keeping them around, in that regard I have grown so much from the desperation I once had.  I read bodybuilding forum a lot and most of those guys on there are messes with girls, and these are guys you’d expect to be at least a bit of a cut above given a physicality, but guys, you need to get with the program here: WHEN GIRLS ARE BITCHES LET THEM GO AND SPARE YOURSELF SOME PRIDE.

19yo is easy, she is just evasive/unresponsive, its easy to see that for what it is, a ploy to get you to come back harder or that she has moved on, either way your move is same: abort.

MILF took me a bit longer to figure her ploy, we met and fucked a few times after, and she has this thing about being secret from the divorced father and calls me on public phones, weird I know but she always shows up for the fuck and I never thought much about it.  She started getting a lot more relationshipy for a while there, calling and texting how she was thinking about me etc, she actually is pretty cool and I mistakenly allowed myself the thought that you can be good friends with a girl and also fuck buddies – you can’t.  Guys develop feelings too easy generally except when at a full arms length like I kept the 19yo.

Anyway, so thats not where it ends, it perhaps seems like simple ‘old lady wants beta relationship’ but see that where it gets fun, because what I realized was it was a rather skillful strategy she was running, gradually building up her attention to me mixed with completely wild sex, promise me more sex…and then gradually dial it down.  It was subtle, and honestly I dont know if its consciously calculated or simply a result of innate girl abilities, but slow it down enough that I get addicted to intermittent reinforcement to her, and that I start chasing HER.  For reference I would her from her about every 2-3 days and get 1-2 emails a week.

It hit me when I wrote a short paragraph email to her – she had been writing me, and remember I thought we were ‘good friends’ and then a few days later a simple ‘thinking of you :) ‘ -which by the way is nearly the EXACT same line the BPD girl who fucked me up used all the time which makes me think its an established girl routine.  But it hit me in that I was getting in over my head, that a MILF i fucked on occasion I was developing feelings for, and I saw with clarity how skillfully she was trying to get me into her web.  It was no accident I hadn’t heard from her in a week, before she had been talking how she was making plans to come visit me any weekend now, and that the only email was a dumb 3 word thing amidst the silence.  She was trying to game me, friends don’t game friends.

It slapped me a bit, but it sobered me up, once pre-bpd girl I would have clung to this email, yay, she is thinking of me.  But girls actions are EVERYTHING, girls will drives hours to fuck you, and if they aren’t answering a text or email it is entirely for a reason.

Again, it doesn’t really matter the reason, either she no longer likes you, you pushed to hard, she is trying to game you and the answer is always the same: disengage.  You may not need to abandon completely, but none of those reasons are good for you and only by pulling back, realizing it, can you ever salvage anything.

NEVER EVER make excuses, oh she must be busy, so glad she could write me THREE WORDS…girls come in waves, you simply have to know when its time to move on.

Of Africans and Europeans

I was running a drilling rig today – yes some men actually have jobs and do manly things, and oddly there was a  group of students from a university with us to get samples, all of them were graduates, and all of them were foreign, despite it being a USA school – guess despite their bitching about americans still want to be here

3 of them, one guy from france, fairly outgoing and capitalized female attention but had that gay metrosexual down to an art.  I bet he actually DOES get some girls, but I have no idea the quality.

The two others one was perhaps from spain, cute face but a bit of a man jaw, nice body but a bit too small and lacking meat nearly anywhere.  I talked her a bit but she wasn’t feeling it.  Last was a girl from Tunis, really nice but a bit fat, she was fun to talk to.  What I thought was interesting, was I asked her, ‘do you consider yourself european or african’ – knowing of course that tunis WAS on Africa, but what modern euro-like girl wants to be from the shithole of the world?

Her answer I thought was pretty telling for its simplicity ‘We are North Africans’, I had to laugh, she even proceeded to slyly smile and mention some comment about how bad the rest of Africa is.  So despite any protests to the contrary, even hyper-feminized euro zone STILL did not want to be associated with the jamal capital of the world.  It’d kind of be like ‘hey arent you an american?’ ‘Nope, I’m a west coastian’.

Anyway, I found it a bit ironic these people were here, part of masters/phd training, inevitably thinking I was ‘dumb’ because I was on a drilling rig, I smiled to myself thinking of that I had nearly concurrent education as them, and wondering would they succeed in the over-flooded education world we find ourselves, or would someone somewhere think they are perfect and pay an overinflated wage in the waning years of this global empire before it all crashes and burns?

New crop of females aint looking so good

I don’t have internet much, which is actually really nice, my productivity has spiked, and I am sitting at macodonardos poaching their internet and there is a high school/college track meet over the road.  I walked over to see if there were any hot girls, and there were a few, but I was surprised these were RUNNERS and most of them had a bit of pork on them, having some serious lordosis going on as well.

I was surprised by how bitchy they were too.  There was a group of girls taunting people as they walked by, as I walked by she slapped her legs and said something about ‘come ‘er boy!’ I am not sure she was talking to me but I was the closest, one of the others said ‘i thought you were going to hit him’.  They were not particularly hot, but as I looked at them, and the vast majority of the males around me with earrings, and tattoos it was very hard to not think I was witnessing the late stages of collapse of our society.

Guys raised to be thugs, and girls impolite fat whores, hard to believe the ‘good white picket fence family’ of the 60s was not that far back.

Normally this age range of 18-21 is supposed to be the hottest a girl is, and when I saw these I was not impressed.  Some were outright fat, but a lot had about 10 pounds to lose, and these were the athletic ones, a lot of them didn’t even look like with the weight lose they would be good.

How can a society last long when the replacement generations are even more deranged than the prior ones, and this shit only gets worse?

The US is in worse shape than I thought

Ironically, being on the road has actually at times making it easier for me to write. Being stuck in a truck taking turns during 4 hours shifts across the US gives me time to think and write while the battery lasts. Two major thoughts have rooted themselves in my mind as of late: first things are worse than I thought in terms of collapse/decline, and the US is far too big to conquer conventionally – and that’s why we killed ourselves.

To speak to the 2nd point first, the US is HUGE. Mind-blowing huge. I traveled a lot as a kid and young man but it is easy to forget. I am in Texas right now, drove all day, this state you can drive ALL DAY AT 80 MPH and not get across it. That is huge as fuck. How is the mex army – if it existed- EVER even get passed Texas? A logistic nightmare as its endless scrub desert and millions with guns. This point really struck me as I was thinking about how essentially we are invincible to ANY conventional attack. Say China puts their million men on boats and actually gets to Sanfran, they plow through some shitlibs and then what? Nothing. Maybe it becomes New Shanghia, but they sure as shit are not getting through Utah/Arizona/New Mex deserts.

The only reason people can get through at all is because of arteries – aka Interstates- which by the way are falling apart. Its like road warrior out here dodging holes and tire blow outs averaging over 1 per mile. Are tank columns going to be getting across the south west desert? Not a fucking chance. Best chance is east coast, plow some fagsters over there and then stall out in the Kentucky or Carolina mountains. Esp. with oil running out no way it happens.

So…short of a nuking or bio attack, we CAN NOT LOSE conventionally. YKW and friends know this, and knew this, so what is the way you can beat someone you can’t hurt yourself? Get them to hurt themselves. So we are force fed things about how BIGGOV is watching every one of us and anything from you Milf Porn searches to tax evasion google search is going to get the feds busting down you door. No way it happens. It will happen to some of us, but this country is way to fucking big, and costs to much. That is the key here, fear spreads like a virus, so they make an example of some guy with kid porn, some tax evader, some gun trafficker, and suddenly its like ‘wow shit, I guess I’m going down soon’, which is not accurate. Its kind of like the sniper where he hits 1 guy, and it has an effect that shuts down a 1000, whereas if they simply resisted or rushed they would lose a few more but that would be that.

Surprisingly there is a ‘oil boom’ of sorts happening right now in texas, but it also is going away due to low oil prices, my prediction is the infrastructure was put into place, so we have something to turn to in the near future, so prepare for a bigger ‘boom’ in 2-5 years down here.

I think the real way to sum up my recent trip here, was a store had like 10 mex and fat white bitches as managers and cashiers, there was one white guy, his face was broken and beaten, looking down at the ground in a slave face wondering how his race and ancestors went down so hard to the traitors in our midst and the mud.

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Black and White thinking – Fox news style

My new job has me on the road approximately 50% of the time, I thought I ‘liked’ travel, but it’s a bit overrated, but that being said I have a lot of time to think, and my hyper-conservative co-workers endlessly listen to Fox news and its spawn. Most people are only capable of thinking in one or other, good evil evil, me vs you, and this is how fox exploits this.

To state it bluntly, I always thought fox news was total shit, a pretty blatant psyops/propaganda piece, that was when I was a liberal and young, most of that has not changed but now I see an interesting thing about some of what they said: a lot of it is true.

Now, I need to qualify this immensely, I am NOT a fan, but I see the insane propaganda of how this works. They rail endlessly about how muslims ‘hate our freedom’ and how good America is because of ‘freedom’, yes, pretty dumb I know. But what was surprisingly interesting was how they took Killary Clinton to task about all this stuff about insider trading to Russia, to evading taxes etc. Of a typical program on fox, 90% is Killary criticism, but only things that are easy to point to: such as insider trading, NOT that she is just as war hawkish as Bushbama presidency.

What this taught me, is how this fits into the simplistic plots we are taught and grow up with. We are REARED thinking there is ‘good guys’ (us) vs those bad guys out there. There good is clear and right, bad is evil, wrong, greedy, never is there any complex thinking in that both sides might ‘be right’. It is somehow really profound thinking in this world that Isis might actually believe they are ‘good guys’ instead of monsters we think they are. Does anyone wake up thinking ‘yep today I am going to be a bad guy, can’t wait for Team America to come stomp me out’.

So, I have my repub coworkers who HEAR this corruption on the democrat side, and to them ‘democrats are shit’ and for the most part they are right, but they fall into their childish mentality where if demo = evil then repub = good. It becomes impossible for them to realize that REPUBLICANS ARE JUST AS CORRUPT. Over on MSN or wherever they are talking about Chris Chrisitie letting off oil companies light for exchange of political donations.

I’d like to end this with a disturbing sign I saw in Texas: Thank You Israel

Yes, thank you for ruining our country one dollar at a time.

New town – same old shit

I’ve made a pretty big change in my life, I moved to a completely new place with a job that pays really good in this collapsing economy.  I am not sure I will stay here forever as in the desert is not a place that is sustainable long term for self-sufficiency with is important for me.  That being said, it’s lonely at times knowing no one, but it’s put some things into perspective, and reminds me how dumb most people are.

Most people have never traveled or lived meaningfully outside of the place they were born.  I came from a small town and knew this fact, but thought maybe it was localized just there.  This is a city and most people grew up here, went to college here, live here, its kind of sad; very just taking what life gives you rather then going your own way.

People are dumb with time and money.  I grew up extremely, extremely tight with my money, as I rarely had any.  People blow money like crazy on stupid shit, bad food, things they discard right away.  It is stunning how little people know about fixing their own stuff, making things last etc.  I haven’t had the internet, and I feel withdrawals, but being forced to go to public wifi spots has helped me cut down on stupid surfing, I have to have my purpose dialed.

My boss is ‘smart’ but is religious and doesn’t believe in climate change or evolution- and I work in science.  I guess this shows how successful propaganda is that smart people can believe basic untruths.  If people don’t believe evolution happens, how would you ever convince them of subtler truths that we are exposed to?

The lack of being insular will doom the white race

The endless cultural marxism and YKW race mixing will lead to the death of the white race.  It is painful how clear this is, and a majority simple wallow in ignorance.  Consider this Tunisia shooting, what do you see?  You see white people running from muslim shooters.  I don’t particularity hate muslims, they are a convenient scapegoat for keeping our military machine running on, one of the last races of men that are still aggressive.  France leads europe in wanting to let them in, with UK it is also a huge problem, but after all we are ‘one race’ right?

That’s the problem, the only people who subscribe to the one race screed is whites.  Blacks are insular, mexicans are insular, chinese are insular, muslims are insular.

We have whites have to apologize for comments while surrounded by the very people he was demonizing, I wonder if the pure irony was planned in that picture.  Did our masters get a kick out of another loss for white people?

The hypocrisy of course is that a white who shows racial pride is some sort of ‘dumb hick racist’ whereas a black is celebrated for having so much ‘black pride’.  Meanwhile whites self-eviscerate themselves on the way to the bottom of who is less racist and most gay to appeal to the lost females of our race who are held by a magic spell of foreign dick.

It’s pretty sad, that museum shooting, look at some of the younger guys, pure hipster with a gayish hair cute and cute little beard to match, weak bodied and dull minded, wondering why do the hate us so much, aren’t we trying to invite them into our country?

It really is only going to end 2 ways, the whites get bred and murdered out of existence by endless black on white violence of despite being 13% of the population account for 50% of the murders, and this is the fbi talking , and that will be game, you will have minor races incapable of up-keeping the entire society whites built and we devolve into stone age existence.

But there is also a chance that pushed to the limits, whites wake up and realize the total and complete lies they have been told, and that unless they look after themselves we will be gone.  Period.  Whites have built nearly everything of note in modern society, and we possess the tenacity and will to bring tremendous anger and retribution.  Maybe this will happen.  But there is a reason endless demonization of pro-white and racial-insular thoughts are so common, it’s so the average white never thinks there might be a reason with endless illegal immigration, and that blacks and muslims may not actually want us completely dead.

But hey, viva la diversity, because after all, diversity is code name for anti-white.